I wish I had time to sit here and write about everything that has happened since my last post. I can't, but I will say: I had my baby! :) My birthing experience was amazing. It was scary at one point, but mostly it was amazing. It was hard and it was painful, but it was wonderful. My husband was a wonderful support, my midwife was perfect, and my baby was so worth all the tears, all the waiting, and all the pain. I'd do it over and over and over again (and I probably will)!
Tyron Douglas was born on November 24th, 2010 at 4:23am after 9 hours of active labor including 23 minutes of pushing. He weighed 8lbs 9oz and was 23inches long.
And now, 5 weeks later, he weighs over 13lbs and is 25inches long. He's got big blue eyes and is making his mommy and daddy so proud, so filled with love, so amazed at God's miracles and blessings every day.
I love being a mommy. It is tough, especially after nights like last night, with very little sleep. It has been tough to make decisions that affect my baby greatly. I had to make the decision to give up breastfeeding in favor of formula feeding. It saved my sanity and we are all much happier now, but it was a really heartbreaking decision. We've already packed up the newborn clothes (and the 0-3 month clothes) and are watching our baby boy grow right before our eyes. He's beautiful and perfect, and I feel so blessed that God chose me to be his mother. What I did to deserve a precious gift like Tyron, I will never know. I strive to be the best mother I can be, even in my mistakes and imperfections. I love Tyron fully and honestly, and my goal is to raise him to be loving, caring, gentle, patient and strong like his daddy. But most of all, I want him to grow up loving God.
This whole "motherhood" thing is a lot more than I expected it to be. It's more fulfilling, more rewarding, more difficult, more exhausting, more responsibility, more time consuming, more amazing than I ever imagined.